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斗兽围困
Lena也在东方余悠这里。
Jayden见到她有些尴尬,就像曾经很熟现在又完全不熟了的样子,不过这也正是对他们的关系的精准描述。
人都聚全了可东方余悠却并不感觉被关爱围绕,更多,她有种被利用的感觉。
她只是个借口来去供他们周旋,而她这个地方俨然已经成了一个最佳斗兽场。两大选手都已登场,战事一触即发。
可是暴风雨来前总是沉默。两个人就东方余悠的病情以及目前她的身体状况展开了一阵讨论。但是事实上,东方余悠已经恢复得非常不错了,所以这其实是无人需要在意的事。
最终还是Lena先捅破了这层窗户纸。当一个人头昏脑热地处于一段恋爱中时,你就不能再以一个惯常的眼光来去期待她。
Lena:“How do you feel now?(你感觉怎么样?)” 她问Jayden,但仍小心翼翼。
Jayden:“Good. I’m fine.(很好,不错。)”
Lena:“Are you sure?(你确定吗?)”
Jayden:“What do you expect to hear? I feel terrible that I was out the first round? Is that what you want? OK, I feel like shit, I just can't accept that I lost AGAIN!There you go, I lost again, happy now? Can I PLEASE PLEASE have a break now?(你想要听什么?我感觉很糟糕因为我一轮游了?这是你想要的吗?好,我感觉糟透了,我就是不能接受我又输了!来,我又输了,开心吗?我现在能稍微休息一下吗?)”
Lena:“No that's not what I want to hear! I just want you to be honest with yourself. You are now in denial!(不,那不是我想要听到的!我只想要你诚实地面对自己。你想在还处于否认当中。)”
Jayden:“Yeah, I'm in denial because I didn't say what you think I should say. That, I'm in denial and I'm a nut job. Because you, you shrink just fucking know everything!(对,我处于否认之中因为我没有说你认为我应该说的话,那就是,我处于否认之中,我是个疯子。因为你,你们心理医生他妈的无所不知!)”
Lena:“I’m just trying to help!(我只是想帮你!)”
Jayden:“By what and for what? You just want me to win!(通过什么?为了什么?你只想要我赢!)”
Lena:“Only because I know you want to!(只因为我知道你想要!) ”
Jayden:“Yeah, of course I want to win, but I'm also OK with losing. It's not that big of deal!(当然我想赢,但是输我也可以接受。这不是多大的事儿!)”
Lena:“Only if you really feel that way but do you? You show frustration on court and frustration always leads to aggression--(如果你真这么觉得的话,但是真的吗?你在赛场上很烦恼,而烦恼又总是导致暴力--)”
Jayden:“Oh yeah! Lo and behold, psychology works its magic!(没错!哇哦,心理学的神奇魔法!)”
Lena:“No, this is not psychology, this is observation. Everyone can see it. You even smashed you racket last week. (不,这跟心理学没关系,这是观察。每个人都能看出来。你上周还摔了球拍。)”
Jayden:“OK, whatever, I'm tired of this. It's a broken record playing again and again. This is not going anywhere.(好的,随便吧,我已经厌倦了。同样的对话已经太多遍了。我们不会有什么结果的。)” Jayden挑了挑眉,背过身去。
Lena:“What do you mean?(什么意思?)”
Jayden复又转身过来面对她。
Jayden:“I mean you are on my ass for everything, for girls, for games. You are like a mom.(我的意思是,你事儿太多,关于女孩、关于比赛,就像个老妈子一样。 )”
最后一句话把Lena已经到嘴边的无论什么话都噎了回去。
她瞪大了眼睛张着嘴,一句话也说不出。
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