The Sorrows of Young Benjamin

所以本接到message厕所都来不及上，就赶忙跑过来了233。看上一章我还在想，Tina竟然真的洗了lil Pink，hmm，非常温馨非常用心了。果然。哈哈哈哈哈。Pat洗个碗都会因为Tina不在身边陪着觉得无比艰辛，所以洗Lil Pink的时候也是Tina陪着对咩？然后最后洗得很漫长对不对…哈哈哈
其实想想尼克的独立执教顶级联赛并没有比Tina早很久，但就是这早了的一小步，让他在很多方面对Tina有很大的影响。影响当然响是相互的，而且他们本来就很像才会那么亲密。但毕竟他也算Tina第一个“师从”的名帅了。不只是执教（Tina自己的天分努力和思考当然还是主要），还包括对更衣室的掌控啊，足球观啊。Tina和Pat是从小的互相依赖，Tina和尼克其实也是在职业生涯一起成长起来的啊。共同走过最初的，很艰难的起步阶段【比心】
尼克说“要跟球员保持一定的距离”的时候，皮埃尔小朋友还是Pat的球童呢……Tina不知道尼克现在也是有两条敦厚恬淡的狗和一个谈恋爱都要第一时间汇报给他的迷弟的主教练吧 233
hmm，以前倒是确实没考虑过，“菲尔也在给Tiana寻找一个母亲的角色”。打出来缇安娜的名字才发现，Disney的《公主和青蛙》里的公主就是Tiana。我觉得菲尔的爱romantic的成分其实不算多——如果对是否romantic的区分是是否有男女之情，你让他真跟Tina成为男女朋友，我觉得他会觉得别扭的。Tina就像广场上最耀眼的圣诞树，但大多数人都知道家里装不下，只是看着就会觉得很开心。Tina不仅是菲尔的role model，在《女王》里，菲尔也说过，希望Tiana像Tina一样，人生有更多更好的选择，有一个自由的人生。一定程度上类似的出身背景，让菲尔看到可以有不一样的选择。（话说本对“类似的出身背景”划分得够宽的，果然上流社会的scale跟正常人不一样……在我看来的“底层”和“还算正常的中下层”都被conflated了……2333
本跟菲尔不一样，因为他毕竟是家里有草原的人。别说养烈马种圣诞树，美洲豹都能装下。菲尔和Tina的联结，一定程度上是建立在相似的出身背景上；但本从Tina这里得到的，是超越背景和阶级的认同感。后者总是更稀有。作为Hamilton家族的rebel，和球场上别人眼里的”富家小子”，这是本第一次找到认同感吧。他回忆里的童年都是母亲大惊小怪让他不要踢橄榄核把鞋子弄脏，以及别人眼里的已经足够“奇怪”的史蒂夫。当个好心人，把Twisted的歌词搬过来——（可真够长的……所以作者正文和有话说都懒得贴么？233
She\'s twisted, he\'s a rebel, she\'s sick, he\'s hard to handle
The worst part of all is he just don\'t care
She\'s twisted like a rope, that is wrapped around his throat
But the worst part of all is she really don\'t give a (shit)
(She don\'t give a shit)
But maybe I\'m the twisted one that screwed this up
So I guess this means goodbye, for now
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Some people go crazy and they lose control
Some people jump off, some people won\'t let go
Some people say love, some people say why
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我之前打下本是个“rebel“的时候，还没研究歌词，嘿嘿。果然他对自己的定位也是rebel。哎，少年本的烦恼。一个crazy，lose control，清醒地走在悬崖边缘的本。如果不是Tina，本会爱上一个什么样的人呢？感觉不会是艾梅伯，也不会是Andrea，更不会是艾比或者Kate。记得《女王》里提过，她妈妈的贵妇朋友，不是没有勾引过他的。总莫名感觉本可以出演那种爱上神秘寡妇的危险美少年。就是一定要有一点危险，但不是艾梅伯那种桀骜骄傲少女，而是危险又神秘，有很多很多的层次。
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Twisted
You sit there stone-faced, as if I\'m not here
Can\'t you see that I\'ve been crying?
I didn\'t know you\'d be insane
Dreams can be so deceiving
You\'re an itch I can\'t reach, a wound that won\'t heal
The smell of skin that\'s burning
I didn\'t know you\'d be insane
But it\'s true, and just say all I am to you is a
Pain in my neck, thorn in my side
Stain on my blade, blood on my knife
Been dreaming of her, all of my life
But she won\'t come true, she\'s just my nightmare I woke up to
She\'s twisted, he\'s a rebel, she\'s sick, he\'s hard to handle
The worst part of all is he just don\'t care
She\'s twisted like a rope, that is wrapped around his throat
But the worst part of all is she really don\'t give a (shit)
(She don\'t give a shit)
Sometimes I wish that you\'d just die
Cause I\'m too afraid of leaving
I didn\'t know you\'d be insane
Dreams can be so deceiving
(How did it come to this?
Why do I fantasize to kill you when you\'re sleeping?)
I didn\'t know you feel the same
When I say you\'re no good, all you are to me, is a
Pain in my neck, thorn in my side
Stain on my blade, blood on my knife
Been dreaming of her, all of my life
But she won\'t come true, she\'s just my nightmare I woke up to
She\'s twisted, he\'s a rebel, she\'s sick, he\'s hard to handle
The worst part of all is he just don\'t care
She\'s twisted like a rope, that is wrapped around his throat
But the worst part of all is she really don\'t give a
Love ain\'t no fairytale, love is a buried nail
Inside of this heart of stone, so you wanna get married? Well
Romeo, Romeo, smokin\' blow with Antonio
In the back alley takin\' shots of whiskey and only gold
Juliet\'s at the nudie bar, doin\' God only knows
Neither one of \'em came to see the dog and the pony show
But a bitch is a bitch, and a horse is a horse, ain\'t it?
Sorry, I can\'t afford to get your daddy\'s old Porsche painted
Sorry, Juliet that you embedded the sayin\'
If a dollar makes you holler, well then I\'m gettin\' the short change of it
Feel like I\'ve been asleepin\' alone and lovin\' this angel
Entangled between a dream and a coma
Walkin\' the edge of this cliff, like a sheep to it\'s owner
Then wake up to this fuckin\' bitch with an evil persona
Now if you say that you hate somebody and you livin\' with them
Then they pack up and leave and then you bitch about how you miss \'em
You gotta see the pattern of the blood all over the steerin\' wheel
Love is a cannibal ridin\' a carnival carousel
\'Round and \'round we roll, where it stops, baby nobody knows
Some people go crazy and they lose control
Some people jump off, some people won\'t let go
Some people say love, some people say why
Some people don\'t love, they just want a free ride
The rain won\'t stop, it\'ll never dry
If she\'s in the house of pain then love is standin\' outside
She\'s twisted, he\'s a rebel, she\'s sick, he\'s hard to handle
The worst part of all is he just don\'t care
She\'s twisted like a rope, that is wrapped around his throat
But the worst part of all is she really don\'t give a (shit)
(She don\'t give a shit)
But maybe I\'m the twisted one that screwed this up
So I guess this means goodbye, for now