the change of self: from the old to the new

　　In this chapter, I like Yue and Ye a little more than before because they both showed their true inner emotional states, and that is what makes them human: for Ye, he showed his fear and pain; so he is no more a monster who randomly kills and insults others. For Yue, he finally breaks his calmness and peace and showed us his psychological turmoil; so he is no more a perfect strong superman in this world. Although they both survived childhood trauma, they have to deal with their past because the past can affect their presence as well as their future.
So, how they interpret past events and deal with them really matters and determines how they react to the present situation and how they treat Su.
For Ye, his whole attention is focusing on how to prevent potential disasters and hurtful things happening in his and Su\'s life again(he has been protective of Su too much). So his methods are reactive. Being reactive is not wrong, but it lacks control over the self and the situations.
For Yue, he tries to find the resources of his (along with Su and Ye\'s) painful past and get rid of them, so he can achieve his true peaceful inner state, find his new self, and finally discover his new identity.
For Yue, \"Qi Xing Hu\" and other \"self-righteous\" organizations are all corrupt which is driven by the old forces and caused their (Su, Yue, and Ye\'s) painful past. So, his intention is to destroy the old order in order to establish a new one. This process is challenging and painful and no guarantee of success.
Personal growth also takes this painful process: often time, we have to be destroyed, deconstructed, broken, and then reconstructed, reformed, and resurrected. Thus, the old self disappears, and the new self arises--and this is the necessary process of self-improvement and self-perfection(my opinion).
So Yue\'s method is more proactive which shows more control over his personal life and environment.
Does Su also need this kind of broken and resurrection? Personally, I would say \"yes\" because this is the only way to end his struggle, gain a sense of security, and discover his true self. So he does not need to lie to anybody. So he can become stronger and a real \"Jue Ding Gao Shou\".
So the question becomes this: how well Su can understand Yue and how much pain he can endure in this process. If Su cannot endure in the end, his better choice is Ye; otherwise, his better choice is Yue.
Let\'s see!

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