评《收养一群偏执反派后》

作者:笛卡卡

  你好呀,亲爱的作者
第一次给别人写长评,就献给亲爱的你啦
  我是一个普普通通高三的学生,我经常活的很不快乐,但是又很幸福,虽然身体不好,有着幸福的不能再幸福的家庭,但有着很爱很爱自己爸妈,有种许许多多温暖的朋友。
  也许是因为他们太温暖了,我才没有换上抑郁症,小学遭到了整个小学的校园暴力,从有意识才意识到怎么会是但不敢反抗装作不知道高中才摆脱的各种熟人的猥亵,小时候的我有点呆,有点怯弱,很单纯很单纯,不敢反抗,别人对我恶意,我不知道怎么回应,别人对我好,我也不知道怎么回应,但每当受到温暖时,无法描述那种语言,我的反射弧太长了,长到我用很久很久才感到了疼痛,他们打我,他们侮辱我,心理上的,身体上的,我在那时候,根本不知道该怎么回应啊
  我高一开始回想过往,开始陷入过去的黑暗,我觉得我很脏,就像一只阴沟里的老鼠,每天夜晚,我翻来覆去睡不着啊,曾经的伤害我不敢和我身边信任的人说,他们太爱我了,我不想让他们担心
  半夜经常流泪,总是莫名其妙的流泪走在路上,觉得整个人已经没有了知觉,那瞬间我什么都感受不到了,感觉不到周围的一切,脑子里什么都没有,看到高高的楼,想着
  
 
  「跳下去,好像也不错啊」
  
  没有一个人发现,我不敢对着任何一个人说出一个字
  
  我以后也不想说,谁都不想说,烂在肚子里
  
  忘掉吧
  
  我所经历的又不是只有我经历过,如果这点小事你就去死
  
  不就成了大人口中的
  
  “现在的年轻人,心理可真脆弱啊”
  
  我死了,我也不安心,放不下他们,他们会为我多伤心啊
  
  我不想让任何人为我感到悲伤,我也认为自己没有什么好悲伤的,四肢很健全啊,人又高又瘦
  
  有着花一般的年纪,又没有经历什么生离死别,我配吗?
  
  后来越来越受不了,每天活的像在深海里,晚上回忆一上来,哮喘就止不住,走来路上都喘的感觉要窒息了,头晕啊
  
  下一刻面对着朋友,可以换上一副滴水不漏的笑容,不想让他们担心
  
  
  想走出去,哪怕很迷茫和痛苦,但我相信总有一天,不再为过去的事情而露出痛苦麻木的表情,日子还是要过的,223天的高考倒数还在继续的倒数还在继续
  
  今天把您的文字看完了,感觉有什么东西冲破了我头顶的阴霾
  
  如今高三了,身上的戾气越来越重,心思也越来越重,遇到了很多人很多事,用最恶意的意图去揣测这个世界,自私的神态,袖手旁观的怯弱,逐渐学会了如何“保护”自己,但越来越不快乐
  
  看到了季糖,觉得他真的是一个很温柔很强大的人啊
  
  我逐渐明白,之所以不快乐的原因是因为我看世界的姿态的不对
  
  如果能跳出过去,用怀有希望,温暖的眼睛看这个世界,就像季糖一样,那一定很快乐吧
  
  变成一个温柔的人啊,不仅仅是面对我的朋友,我的家人,而是很多很多人,用我的力量去感染身边的人
  
  想驱散自己身上的阴霾,想走出去,拔掉身上的刺,想露出开怀笑容,想变成一个充满拥有希望和爱的人,虽然可能还要很久很久
  
  我感谢所有给我温暖的人,没有他们,我无法用那股力量去让自己振作
  
  
  
  我爱这个世界,想温柔的对待这个世界
  
  谢谢您,感谢你您温暖放文字,让我找到了一个答案
  
  
  
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  「有一种极其强大的力量,至今,科学尚未能对此作出如理的解释。这力量包容了一切,而且主宰了一切,成为宇宙中任何现象的基石,却未为我们认知。这宇宙的力量,就是爱。
科学家去寻找统一宇宙的理论(统一场论),却忽略了这个最具力量的不可见之力。爱就是光,他照明了那些施(这个光)与受(这个光)的人。它是引力,因为它令人彼此关注。它是一种力,能够积累我们的善,令人类无需着意去消除自我(selfishness)。爱,或显或隐。因为爱,我们有生有死。爱是上帝,上帝是爱。
这个力阐明一切法(事物与思维),而且令生命具足意义。这是个给我们一直忽略了的变异(无常),(为什么会忽略呢?)可能是由于我们对爱恐惧,因为它是人类在宇宙中唯一无法驾驭的能量。
为了显示爱,我用我一个著名的公式作一个简单的替代。替代E=mc?,能治愈世间的能量(E),等于爱乘以光速平方。这样我们就得出一个结论:爱是最强大的力量,因为它无限。
除爱之外,宇宙中其余的力量都与人相违,我们无法应用这些力,无法控制这些力,是故我们就急需要找出一种能量来长养我们。如果我们要维护人种(our species)、如果我们要寻找生命义理、如果我们要救助器世间和有情世间,爱,就是唯一的答案。
也许,我们还没有准备好爆发一埸爱的惊震,(这惊震就是)一个充满能量的机制,将可毁灭地球的仇恨、自慢与贪婪摧毁。到底,每一个独立个体都有一个微小而具力的爱的能量源(generator of Love),它随时随地都可以释放能量。
可爱的Lieserl,当我们懂得怎样施与受这宇宙能量时,我们就会确定,爱能够调伏一切,能够超越每一种法,超越任何一种法,因为爱就是生命的精华。
未能表达我的内心,我深感遗憾,令我一生都为你牵挂。抱歉或者太迟了,不过时间相对,我只要告诉你,我爱你,我谢你,我终于找到了最终的答案!
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  —爱因斯坦
  
  
  “When I proposed the theory of relativity, veryfew understood me, and what I will reveal now to transmit to mankind will alsocollide with the misunderstanding and prejudice in the world.
I ask you to guard the letters as long asnecessary, years, decades, until society is advanced enough to accept what Iwill explain below.
There is an extremely powerful force that, sofar, science has not found a formal explanation to. It is a force that includesand governs all others, and is even behind any phenomenon operating in theuniverse and has not yet been identified by us. This universal force is LOVE.
When scientists looked for a unified theory ofthe universe they forgot the most powerful unseen force. Love is Light, thatenlightens those who Give and Receive it. Love is gravity, because it makessome people feel attracted to others. Love is power, because it multiplies thebest we have, and allows humanity not to be extinguished in their blindselfishness. Love unfolds and reveals. For LOVE we live and die. Love is Godand God is Love.
This force explains everything and givesmeaning to life. This is the variable that we have ignored for too long, maybebecause we are afraid of love because it is the only energy in the universethat man has not learned to drive at will.
To give visibility to love, I made a simplesubstitution in my most famous equation. If instead of E = mc? we accept thatthe energy to heal the world can be obtained through love multiplied by thespeed of light squared, we arrive at the conclusion that love is the mostpowerful force there is, because it has no limits.
After the failure of humanity in the use andcontrol of the other forces of the universe that have turned against us, it isurgent that we nourish ourselves with another kind of energy. If we want ourspecies to survive, if we are to find meaning in life, if we want to save theworld and every sentient being that inhabits it, love is the one and onlyanswer.
Perhaps we are not yet ready to make a bomb oflove, a device powerful enough to entirely destroy the hate, selfishness andgreed that devastate the planet. However, each individual carries within them asmall but powerful generator of LOVE whose energy is waiting to be released.
When we learn to give and receive thisuniversal energy, dear Lieserl, we will have affirmed that Love conquers all,is able to transcend everything and anything, because Love is the quintessenceof Life!
I deeply regret not having been able to expresswhat is in my heart, which has quietly beaten for you all my life. Maybe it’stoo late to apologize, but as TIME is relative, I need to tell you that I loveyou and thanks to you I have reached the ultimate answer!”
  
  
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[1楼] 作者回复 发表时间:2019-10-27 16:49:07
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[2楼] 网友:笛卡卡  发表时间:2019-10-27 17:11:25
谢谢老师,你的文字,真温暖啊(咳咳糖糖我就先抱走了我一定照顾好他)