评《[暮光]灿烂阳光》

突然看到泰戈尔的一首诗，觉得很应景，放上来好了
园丁集41
I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to you； but I dare not， for fear you should laugh.
　　我想对你说出我要说的最深的话语，我不敢，我怕你哂笑。
　　That is why I laugh at myself and shatter my secret in jest.
　　因此我嘲笑自己，把我的秘密在玩笑中打碎。
　　I make light of my pain， afraid you should do so.
　　我把我的痛苦说得轻松，因为怕你会这样做。
　　I long to tell you the truest words I have to say you； but I dare not， being afraid that you would not believe them.
　　我想对你说出我要说的最真的话语，我不敢，我怕你不信。
　　That is why I disguise them in untruth， saying the contrary of what I mean.
　　因此我弄真成假，说出和我的真心相反的话。
　　I make my pain appear absurd， afraid that you should do so.
　　我把我的痛苦说得可笑，因为我怕你会这样做。
　　I long to use the most precious words I have for you； but I dare not， fearing I should not be paid with like value.
　　我想用最宝贵的名词来形容你，我不敢，我怕得不到相当的酬报。
　　That is why I give you hard names and boast of my callous strength.
　　因此我给你安上苛刻的名字，而夸示我的硬骨。
　　I hurt you， for fear you would never know any pain.
　　我伤害你，因为怕你永远不知道我的痛苦。
　　I long to sit silent by you； but I dare not lest my heart come out at my lips.
　　我渴望静默地坐在你的身旁，我不敢，怕我的心会跳到我的唇上。
　　That is why I prattle and chatter lightly and hide my heart behind words.
　　因此我轻松地说东道西，把我的心藏在语言的后面。
　　I rudely handle my pain， for fear you should do so.
　　我粗暴地对待我的痛苦，因为我怕你会这样做。
　　I long to go away from your side； but I dare not， for fear my cowardice should become known to you.
　　我渴望从你身边走开，我不敢，怕你看出我的懦怯。
　　That is why I hold my head high and carelessly come into your presence.
　　因此我随随便便地昂着走到你的面前。
　　Constant thrusts from your eyes keep my pain fresh for ever.
　　从你眼里频频掷来的刺激，使我的痛苦永远新鲜。